Take Your Wake-Up Call And Run With It

It wasn’t that big of a deal.  But I didn’t know that at first.

I was helping my daughter move, and I’m pretty good about moving.  It’s my thing, and I’m proud of my efficiency at packing or unpacking.  I can carry boxes back and forth as well as the next woman.  This move should have been a piece of cake, but I wasn’t working at my normal pace.  I felt lethargic and my joints ached.  I hoped that my daughter wouldn’t notice, but knew she did.

I was upset because I had to assume that old age was finally creeping in.  Well, as upset as I could muster the energy for. 

So, I thought, this is what it feels like?  How could I let this happen?  I haven’t taken good enough care of myself. And now my abilities are melting away, and there’s nothing I can do to stop time from doing its damage.  The more I thought about my aches, the more resigned I became to how I had blown it.  I had assumed that my positive attitude would carry me through, and I’d be one of those “young” old folks.  I was wrong.  When I laid my head on the pillow that night, I was more tired than I’d been in a very long time.

The next morning came. It brought with it a sore throat, congestion, a nasty sounding cough – and complete relief!  I am almost never sick, and I hadn’t recognized it when it crept up on me.  Sick is temporary – an old body is not.  I can do sick.  Not so ready to do old.

As silly as it sounds, I’m grateful to have been sick.  Because I also received a wake-up call.

I’m assessing what I will miss the most when old age does come calling. I’m making adjustments to avoid those problems as long as I can. It would be one thing if I had to deal with an actual disability. What angered me was that I was letting old age catch me unprepared. I took time and my health for granted. I hadn’t lived in a way that fully utilized my capabilities – and that is the definition of waste. I hate waste.  

I refuse to make it worse by letting a good wake-up call go to waste. I need to pay more attention to how I spend my time.

I have things left to do before I slow down too much.  I need my body to be able to do them.

I choose to take nothing for granted.  I’m taking my wake-up call and I’m running with it.